Saturday, December 29, 2007

My neice will have a .........

Well I just got off the phone with my brother. They had a sonogram yesterday. The baby is a BOY!!! He is doing good. All measurements are right where they should be. Now for the problem. My sister in laws cervix is now thinning. They are talking to a surgeon today about having her cervix stitched closed. If my nephew would make an appearance now, his would not survive. They are aiming for at least 26 week. ( she is now 20 weeks). The optimal time is 32 weeks. This is going to be a very long, and stressful time. Please pray for my brother, sister in law, and nephew. My brother wants so much to have a son. I wish there was more I could do for them. I am still sick, and don't want to pass my germs to any of them, that is the last thing they need right now.

Oh and yes, in my dream I posted about earlier, Mom told me the baby is a boy.

Thursday, December 27, 2007

Nasty Bugs

Last week Greg wasn't feeling well, now I am sick. I had to call in tonight from work. I have taken some nyquil earlier today, and plan on taking more tonight before I go to bed. Christmas night, my best friend and her son came over for a while. After her son opened his gift, we went upstairs and played pool for a while. They left and I went to bed shortly after that. Greg is laid off this week, so yesturday I went to work, he was relaxing a little. He had a Drs appointment in the morning for his blood pressure, they adjusted his meds again. I will be so glad when they get everything adjusted to where it needs to be. Today I basically laid around, while he and another friend got the last gift for Greg out of my van. It is a Total Gym, like on TV. Tomorrow I have to work, or I won't get paid Holiday pay. This weekend we are pretty busy also. Saturday, Greg has bowling, Sunday is the deadskin and dallas game. Monday we are having friends over for New Years Eve, and Monday is well recovery day. I will post more when I feel better.

Tuesday, December 25, 2007

Christmas Day

WOW Today was a wonderful day. My husband and I got to spend a lot of time together. That always makes for a good day. I got up this morning and put the turkey in the oven. I got the fruit punch made. I even made breakfast. After we ate, I decided to let Dakota open his gifts. YES he opened them himself. Greg and I then exchanged gifts with each other. He got me some Wh*ite Dia*mond perfume, and some other perfume. He also got me a bathroom essentials gift bag. It has lots of stuff in it, so I will be in the bathroom for hours now lol. I got him a set of Na*car coffee cups, and a remote control Mustang. He has been telling me for months now he wants one, and that was the only one in my budget. We also got a Total Gym. We watched specials on TV, then I finished dinner. We ate and well he is now sleeping in his recliner. Dakota is sleeping at my feet. I am tired, but if I sleep now, I won't sleep tonight. Here is a video of some pictures I took of our decorations and our day.

Monday, December 24, 2007


After that last post, and getting that off my chest. I want to take a minute and share everything I am thankful about. Right now I am done ( for the moment) baking cookies. My ham is almost done. Greg and I straightened up the house today. I have all gifts including Dakotas ( our 4 legged baby boy) wrapped and neatly placed under the tree. I am listening to Christmas songs ( have been all day). thinking about all the things I am thankful for.

1. I am thankful for a wonderful husband, companion, best friend, and soul partner Greg

2. I am thankful for wonderful friends, both online and in person.

3. I am thankful for a wonderful Brother and sister in law

4. I am thankful for a beautiful niece Madison.

5. I am grateful for the new baby that is due in May.

6. I am thankful for finally seeing the end of the tunnel in college in hopes to get my degree May 17th.

7. I am thankful for all my family, some I don't talk to as often as I should, but they are always in my thoughts and prayers.

8. Most importantly, I am both grateful and thankful for our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, who was born of the virgin Mary, died and risen, and soon will come again. Jesus gave his life, so I will be able to enter the gates of Heaven. What a WONDERFUL GIFT !!!!

As I sit here and think about this night many many years ago, Mary and Joseph being turned away from the Inn after traveling for so long. Mary about to give birth, and sent to the stables where the animals were kept. God sent his son to deliver us all from Evil. I think about the angel appearing to the shepherds, and those 3 wise men, who following a star, found our Lord and Savior laying in a Manger, in the little town of Bethlehem.

Then look at our society today. Christmas has become so commercialized. People spend so much money of gifts for their family. You can spend all the money in the world, but the greatest gift you can gift your friends and family is the gift of time.

I sit and read the story of the birth of Jesus, and also read a book Santa and the Christ Child. It really puts into perspective the TRUE meaning of this Holiday Season.

Now I must finish preparing everything, so I can head to bed so Santa can perform his "magic" tonight. I will post pictures tomorrow sometime of the decorations as well as pictures of a dog that opens his own gifts. I sure hope Santa doesn't leave to much for Dakota this year.

Merry Christmas and God Bless you all.

1 YEAR AGO.....

Sitting here thinking of everything that happened one year ago today.

My brother, sister-in-law, and niece came up to visit to exchange Christmas gifts. They left about 2 pm. We had a wonderful time together. Mom was happy. After they left, we decided to take a nap. I woke up about this time. Mom was still sleeping. Greg was playing his xbox games. At 4, I started to think about making dinner. I went and woke mom enough to ask her what she wanted for dinner, she told me she wasn't hungry yet. I told her that was fine and asked her if she was ready to get up yet. She told me she was tired and just wanted to sleep a little more. There were plenty of times that we ate dinner late, so I wasn't alarmed. I continued to check on her every so often. At 6pm, my uncle ( my fathers brother) called and asked to talk to mom. I took the phone back to her, but she said she didn't want to talk, she wasn't feeling well. I started to get concerned, it wasn't like her to not talk to him when he called, they only talk about once a month. At 7pm, I was sitting in the living room watching tv, Greg was still playing games, and mom was still resting. Greg ran out, and told me mom was calling me. I went back to check on her again. She was laying in bed, it seemed she was trying to wake up. She told me to help her into the bathroom, she was hot and wanted to lay on the cool tile floor. I told her I didn't think that was a good idea. I turned on her fan, and her light. She didn't look right to me either. I felt her forhead, and she seemed a little warm. I took her temperature, and it was a little high. By this time, I was having a hard time keeping her awake. She kept going to sleep. Her skin was moist and clammy. I started to get concerned and asked her if she wanted to go to the hospital. She told me no, she didn't want to go there. I spent another 30 minutes with her, and I really started to get worried. She couldn't stay awake, and seemed very confused. She said her stomach really hurt. Greg stood there with me the whole time. I made the decision to call 911, I knew something was really wrong, but I didn't know what. While we waited for them to arrive. I tried to get mom dressed. She couldn't stay awake and couldn't help me at all. She was still laying in bed, so I got her dressed as best I could. The ambulance arrived and came back to the room. They checked her vitals, I can't remember what her blood pressure was, but her heart rate was 160 bpm. They told me with her heart rate that high, and her continued falling asleep, they would take her to the ER. I helped them get mom ready to go. I told her I would be there soon. After they left with mom, I called my brother and told him what was going on. Mom and i also baked cookies and made fudge for her neighbors. I made really fast deliveries with these. I then got ready and went to the hospital. When I got there, they were already working on mom. They put a line in her leg to draw blood and run IVs. They also did some other tests. 2 hours later, at 10pm they told me she had an infection in her body, but they didn't know where. They were going to admit her to run IV antibiotics. They told me, mom was really sick. I could tell by the way the Dr acted and the way he talked, it was very serious. I went out and called my brother, told him what was going on, and he then came to the hospital. We stayed until about 12:30 am, and they told us they were just waiting on a room, and would be moving her soon. Mom was laying there, and it was very obvious to us, she was in extreme pain. Mom laid there moaning, and groaning. This was very unlike her normal behavior. After we left, my brother told me he would be up in the morning. We then left. I got home, shaken up a little, but knew she was where she needed to be for the night. I did get a little sleep.

Christmas Morning 2006

I woke up at 8 am. I called the hospital first, and talked to the nurse taking care of mom. She told me mom was awake, and able to talk. She was answering the questions that was asked. She asked me if I wanted to talk to mom, and I told her no, just to please let mom know I would be there soon, that I was getting ready to come and see her. I hung up the phone, called my brother and told him what was going on. He said he would be at the hospital about 10am. I told my husband, I was going to the hospital, to check on mom, find out what she wanted packed, and would be back to make dinner so we could take it to the hospital and eat with mom. I got to the hospital at 8 50 am. I went to moms room. When I walked in, I saw a defibulator. I was really mad about seeing this. I knew mom had a DNR, why was that in there, plus the nurse told me mom was awake, talking a little and getting ready to eat breakfast. There were also about 5 or 6 other people in there, and the only one I recognized was the Dr, and the nurse from moms previous visits. The Dr practically ran over to the door, asked if I was related, I said " yes, I am her daughter" I was already in the room, could see mom, but was starting to get confused as to why all these people were in moms room this early on Christmas morning. The Dr litterally pulled my shirt sleeve when we were in the hallway, the Dr looked at me and said " I'm sorry, your mom just passed away" I started to SCREAM!!! All that would come out of my mouth was NO NO NO NOT TODAY...NO MOM NO MOM NO MOM NO" The nurse was standing right beside me the whole time, and she held me up, my legs were giving out from under me. She held me, and cried with me. She asked if there was anyone she could call for me. I told her no, but I needed to call my brother and my husband. I called my husband first, told him to get to the hospital, that mom was gone. After hanging up with him, I called my brother, told him he needed to get to the hospital NOW, he asked what was wrong, I didn't want to tell him over the phone, but it just came out. Mom was gone. He hung up, and I went back to sit with mom and talk to her. I told her I loved her, How much she meant to me. and told her she got her Christmas wish, she was with dad and grandma again. I promised her I would keep my promises, I would finish college, and I would also make sure Madison would remember her grandma. I told her All I would ask of her at that time was to give my kids, my dad, and grandma a hug and kiss. tell them I love them and miss them very much. I told her she didn't really have a chance to be a grandma here on earth, but she was now a grandma to my kids. She could spoil them all she wanted and spend each day with them until we met again. I know in my heart she is now happy. She isn't in pain anymore. She is happy. Mom joined dad, grandma, and my kids, on a wonderful day, Jesus birthday. What a wonderful gift. Mom NEVER asked for anything for Christmas. That was the first year mom ever asked for anything. It was something I was not able to give her, something only God could provide. As much as I love and miss her, I also feel a little peace knowing that her one and only Christmas wish was granted.

Sunday, December 23, 2007

2 more days......

Christmas shopping is finally done. Now I have to wrap everything. I have to go to the grocery store sometime today. I want to bake cookies and get things for out Christmas dinner. Yesterday when I went out, the crowds weren't that bad, well as bad as I thought they would be anyhow. I even made sure our precious dog, Dakota, will have a good Christmas. I got him a new toy and some special treats. I had to put him outside while I put his bag up, or he would for sure start begging for the said items. I am excited for Christmas, yet I feel a little guilty about that. I don't completely understand it though. Later today I am going to try to post a few pictures of some of my most treasured Christmas decorations. I am keeping it short this time, I need a shower and to get motivated a little. Its almost noon and I am still in my pj's.

Saturday, December 22, 2007

Time is moving so fast.....

I can't believe it is almost Christmas. I haven't even really started my shopping. I have 2 small gifts for Greg, and thats it. I still have my brother, sister in law, niece, and a few friends to buy for. I haven't started baking cookies yet either. My house looks like a tornado went through. I will go out shopping tonight while Greg is at bowling. Tomorrow I will clean house and bake cookies. We were suppose to go to my brothers house, but they are sick so that has been postponed until next week hopefully. I haven't seen them in 3 months so it is hard not being able to visit with them.

I got my grades back for the semester, 1 A and 1 B. not to bad really, but I prefer all A's with the amount of work I had to put into the class. I am suppose to start my internship in the spring, didn't know how much paperwork was involved though, now just praying it all works out. I am looking to do the internship at one of the state prisons near where I live. I will be dealing with the children who are there. I don't know how i am going to react to this, or even if I want to accept it. I know they are there for serious crimes and it just breaks my heart.

I also want to go to the cemetery sometime soon, I want to put wreaths on mom and dads grave. It is so hard to believe dad has been gone 3 years, at times it seems like last week, while other times it feels like a lot longer. Mom will be gone one year on Christmas morning, again it seems just like yesterday most of the time. Last Christmas is basically a blur. I only remember bits and pieces. All I remember is when I walked in her room, was pulled out by the Dr. Then screaming. Called hubby and brother, and waited what seemed like forever for them to get there. Next thing I remember we were at the condo, brother left, Greg and I sat in a daze most of the day. had a bowl of cereal for dinner, opened gifts with tears running down our faces.

Going through this year I have done a lot of personal soul searching. I have been through so much, yet I feel stronger in some ways and weaker in other ways. I think I have aged 10 years in the past 12 months, and trust me I have the grey hair to show for it.

To all my friends and family and readers... Remember as we gather to celebrate the birth of our Lord Jesus Christ is the reason for the season. Hold your loved ones close, cherish the memories you will be making with each other. Christmas is not about the gifts under the tree, the food you eat, the cookies you consume. It is about family and being together. That is the best gift anyone can get. the gift of time with family. I urge each and everyone of you, this year, set an extra place or two at the Christmas table... call someone you know who doesn't have family or are unable to be with their family this year, invite them over to spend the holiday with you. It will be a blessing not only to the person, but to yourself as well.

My husband and I started this many years ago. On each holiday we invite people over who we know doesn't have family in the area, or their families are estranged. We open our home and our hearts to them. I take lots of pictures, we eat lots of food. Spend time together. It not only makes their day brighter, but the pure joy we receive is not measurable. It is truly a blessing for us to spend time with our friends, who may otherwise be sitting at home alone on Christmas day. The day is always filled with laughter, tears, a very special day as we celebrate the birth of Jesus Christ.

Wednesday, December 19, 2007


I had a very real dream last night. I want to write it down so I don't forget it. It was so real, I woke up feeling so at peace, something I haven't felt for a very long time.

I was talking to a friend of the families, about missing my mom. I miss dad also, but moms death has been extremely hard on me. While we were talking, mom walked around the corner. During the dream the family friend didn't know mom passed away and I just couldn't remember the day she passed away.( how can I ever forget mom passed on Christmas morning?) Anyhow mom came around and I was SHOCKED, She started talking, saying she was happy, and she was with dad and grandma again. She wasn't in pain anymore. She told me she didn't die, but she was always with me. I told her she was going to be a grandmother again, and she told me she knew, that she and dad picked out the child. I asked her if it is a boy or girl. She told me what it was. ( I am not going to say what she told me, I want to see if it is right) I told her how much I love her and miss her. I also told her I needed to go Christmas shopping that I haven't started I wanted her to go shopping with me like she used to. We had so much fun when we shopped together, talking about the items we picked out and how we thought the receipiant would react. This year is really hard on us, we don't have a lot of money to work with. But I was reassured that the items I do get will be perfect. I told mom again I missed her and how much I love her, She told me she loved me to and that she and dad are always with me. She then disappeared and I woke up.

I have been really worried about mom, hoping she is happy. Mom suffered from deep depression among all the other medical problems. I am so glad I had this dream and mom was able to visit me.

Sunday, December 16, 2007

Lazy Weekends

Friday night was my husbands Christmas party. I was the designated driver for the evening. I must say, this was the worse one I have been to. The place it was held, the food was horrible ( at least the little I got). They ran out of a lot of food before even half of the people were able to get plates. The DJ was totally horrible. If people weren't on the dance floor soon enough, he would stop playing a song and start another song, never mind if people were just listening to the music, or were even on their way to the dance floor. After the party, we went to a local Country music bar. I wasn't feeling well at all. Saturday morning I woke up, I couldn't do anything all day. I was miserable. I was so sick all day. All I could do was lay around. I was suppose to meet with my best friend and her son and go to a Christmas party for his daycare, but wasn't even able to do that. I did sleep a lot yesterday also. Today I feel a lot better. I have so much work to do though. I have to clean house, wash clothes, and all that other fun stuff.

There was an article in the newspaper about the memorial service I went to on Thursday night

I do want to add something about the wonderful man I am married to. He is such an amazing husband. He is my best friend. He knew I wasn't feeling well yesterday, and he was amazing. Rubbing my back at times, telling me he loved me. I am sitting here writing this blog, just watching him sleep. He amazes me in so many ways each and everyday. When we got married, I didn't think I could be anymore in love with him as I was that day 16, almost 17 years ago. Little did I know then, I am more in love with him each and everyday. Now I am not saying he is perfect, because I know there isn't anyone who is perfect. He does have his flaws. I do to. He is such a loving, kind, gentle, and most understanding man I know. I fall more in love with him each and everyday. Now to find something for him, as a Christmas present, that I have money for, to show him how much he truly means to me. His BIG gift will come on Valentines Day. ( that is when we buy more for each other, the prices are lower, and its tax time so we have the money)

Thursday, December 13, 2007

memorial for mom and dad

Tonight at 7 pm is the memorial service for families who have lost children. They are doing a memorial at the begining for grandma, dad and mom. This is the memorial I have prepared for them

Good Evening. My name is Veronica Scott 17 years ago my father organized the first interfaith memorial service. Some of you may already know the story, but for those who are attending for the first time, I would like to share this. There was a lady my father worked with, who lost her son. She asked my father if he knew of anyplace that held a memorial service for families who have lost children. Dad did a lot of research and couldn’t find any. He decided to organize one. He made all the preparations, and the first service was held the second Thursday in December of 1990. There were about 20 people in attendance. My mom and grandmother baked cookies, made cakes, and took care of all the refreshments. In 2004 dad was diagnosed with cancer. One of dads final wishes was to insure that this service would continue. He passed away Sept. 8 2004. Grandma passed away December 14, 2004 due to complications related to diabetes. Last year, a week before Christmas, mom and I were having one of our many conversations about how we missed dad and grandma. She then told me all she wanted for Christmas was to be reunited with them. Christmas eve I had to call the ambulance for mom, she wasn’t feeling well, and I could tell something was seriously wrong. After spending many hours at the hospital, they decided to admit her. Christmas morning at around 830 my mother received her final Christmas wish. She was welcomed into heaven. She was reunited with my father and her mother. I would like to share a poem with you all tonight
Message From the Bridge. Author Unknown.
To my dearest family, some things I'd like to say,
But first of all, to let you know that I arrived okay.
I'm writing this from the Rainbow Bridge.
Here I dwell with God above,
Here there are no more tears of sadness; there is just eternal love.
Please do not be unhappy just because I'm out of sight,
Remember that I am with you every morning, noon and night.
That day I had to leave you when my life on earth was through,
God picked me up and hugged me and He said, "I welcome you.
It's good to have you back again; you were missed while you were gone,
As for your dearest family they'll be here later on.
I need you badly, you are part of My plan,
There's so much we have to do To help our mortal man."
God gave me a list of things that He wished for me to do,
And foremost on the list was to watch and care for you,
And when you lie in bed at night the days chores put to flight,
God and I are close to you in the middle of the night.
When you think of life on earth and all those loving years,
Because you are only human, they are bound to bring you tears,
But do not be afraid to cry, it does relieve the pain,
Remember there could be no flowers, unless there could be some rain.
I wish that I could tell you all that God has planned,
If I were to tell you, you wouldn't understand.
But one thing is for certain, though my life on earth in over,
Now, more than ever before my life to you is closer.
There are many rocky roads ahead of you and many hills to climb,
But together we can do it by taking one day at a time.
It was always my philosophy and I'd like it for you too,
That as you give the world, the world will give to you.
If you can help somebody who's in sorrow and pain,
Then you can say to God at night and "my day was not in vain."
And now I am contented that my life was worth while,
Knowing as I passed along the way I made somebody smile.
So if you meet somebody who is sad and feeling low,
Lend a hand to pick him up as on your way you go.
When you are walking down the street and you've got me on your mind,
I'm walking in your footsteps only half a step behind.
And when it's time for you to go, from your body to be free,
Remember you're not going. You're coming here to me.

Grandma, and dad, I love you and miss you so much. Not a day goes by when I don’t think of you. Mom, I love you and miss you more than words can say when you died, a part of me went with you, I lost not only my parents, but also my best friends.

Wednesday, December 12, 2007


I am going to be an aunt again. I am so happy. The baby is due in May. Will write more later

Monday, December 10, 2007

Monday Madness

If one thing went wrong today, everything went wrong. I had a Drs appointment today to adjust my medication. I went and sold my books back to the college bookstore. Then I had to get ready for work. It was a typical Monday. Lots of work. Lots of people called in. A lady I work with started runner her mouth, I am shocked i didn't loose my temper.This is not a good time for me, my nerves are on edge. Another lady started talking to me, trying to get me calmed down, I was in tears talking to her.

My brother and I are trying to get together for Christmas, but that doesn't look like it is going to happen. I know he is married, and his wifes family all get together for the holidays, but I was really looking forward to seeing them on Christmas eve. I got an email from him this morning, saying they are going to his inlaws house now on Christmas eve. They are going to see them all day both days. My brother is really the only family I have left, yet I feel I am being cheated on seeing them and my niece. I haven't seen them in 3 months. I fear now, my niece will grow up not knowing who I am. They live about an hour away, so we do have to plan on visiting. I just dont know what to do. Should i approach him or email him and tell him how i feel? How would I word it? Should I just let it go?
Christmas will be 1 year since mom passed away, I really feel I need to be with them this year. I know that isn't going to happen now and I am so hurt and so upset. I just don't know.

On another note, I am done the semester at college finally. I am just waiting on my grades. I have my internship in the spring and then I will get my degree.

Sunday, December 9, 2007

the Spirit of Christmas

Well i finally decided to decorate for Christmas. I put the tree up yesturday, now I have to do the rest of the decorations. I wanted to get lights outside, but my luck, it is raining and cold out. I am starting to think I should put the lights up in August, when its not so cold, but then again the neighbors would think I totally lost my mind.

Today is my dads birthday, he would have been 60 years old. In honor of this day I want to share a little bit more about him.

I was always daddys little girl. If he went to the store, I was right there with him. When I was playing softball or basketball, I don't remember him ever missing a game. In high school I played on the church team, we needed a coach, I volunteered him, and we had a wonderful time. He wasn't angry or upset either. When my brother and I were outside, he was usually right out there with us, spending time together, playing with us. In todays society you don't see this at usually. We thought it was so cool that dad would want to play with us, knowing he had other things we knew he wanted to do, but not him, He always wanted to be outside with us. He gave us so many wonderful memories.

I remember dad would help Santa Claus, by coming to visit. Everyone would sit on Santas lap, telling him what we wanted. After the kids told santa, he asked if anyone else wanted to sit and talk to Santa. My mom told Santa all she wanted was a kiss from Santa himself. Santa said that would be fine...... My mother kissed Santa..... I still remember it like it was just last year. I got so angry. I started crying and yelling at my mom. How could she do this? I told her " I am telling my daddy!!!" I even had proof, someone took a picture of my mommy kissing santa Claus. I still have that picture. He would also help Santa by visiting other kids houses who couldn't get out to see Santa. We would often visit with the family, and Santa ALWAYS had a special gift in his bag for everyone in the family.

One of my fondest memories of dad is how unselfish he was. Even after my brother and I were grown and married.. kids in the neighborhood still always came to visit him. They would sit and talk, color, or whatever the kid wanted to do. Dad always had a drink and a snack ready for all those who showed up. If one of them missed the bus, dad would take them to school. Dads best accomplishment is the Interfaith Memorial for Deceased Children. He started it 17 years ago. Someone he worked with, lost their son, she talked to dad, asking if he knew of a memorial service geared to families who have lost children. Dad looked all around, and couldn't find one. He then started organizing one. It is always held on the second Thursday of December. He loved being able to provide this service to the community. I remember watching him do all the preparations, sending out information to people, writing the childs name on the ornaments for the tree, ordering, picking up and polishing the keepsake memorial the families would receive their first year there. Making sure the food for afterward was taken care of. He would start all the preparation right before Christmas, working on it all year long, and I can remember he wouldn't finish everything until right before the service would start. From September until the service, that is all dad would work on. I would always look forward to the service because I could see how much it meant to the families who would come. There are some families who have been there from the very first year. The first year, the refreshments could be carried in 2 plastic bags, I think there were 17 people attending. Now it is mind blowing the number are almost 300 people. Talking to the families, knowing what the service means to them, I am just as proud today as I was 17 years ago, even more so now really. Dad reached out and provided something to so many other people, something so desperately needed, yet was not available at the time.

Random facts about dad
date of birth 12-9-47
Date of death 9-8-2004
favorite color blue
favorite movie fiddler on the roof, or any musical
occupation nurse at a state run mental hospital
siblings 2 brothers 1 sister
favorite pastime watching baseball.... he loved the Baltimore Orioles
other accomplishments he was a volunteer firefighter, working on the ambulance he also played in a band, that opened for Conway Twitty ( even had his saxaphone autographed), raised 2 children, hosted countless pizza parties at home for all neighborhood kids.

Happy Birthday Dad I love you and miss you so much.

Below is a picture of mom and dad, taken July 2004

Sunday, December 2, 2007


I am a 34 year old female. I have been married for 16 years. My husband and I do not have any children right now, but we dream of the day we will become parents. We have gone through fertility treatments including IVF. The pregnancy of triplets ended in miscarriage on May 17, 2002 ( 2 girls, Katrina Renee and Alisha Nichole) and May 19th 2002 ( a boy, Greg JR). I am currently in college majoring in Human Services. I will get my degree on May 17, 2008. After I get my degree is when we plan on looking into adoption further. We have looked a little, but nothing to serious yet. I do have a brother and sister in law, who after almost 10 years of trying, have a beautiful little girl. Both of my parents are deceased. My father passed away on Sept. 8, 2004 due to cancer. My Mother passed on December 25, 2006 ( yes Christmas morning) due to pancreatitis and other long time illness. Although mom had many health issues, her passing was very unexpected. Well I have a final exam for one college class in the morning, so I will close for now. Will post more soon.